Saturday, September 15, 2012
So, I didn't pass the JLPT level 4.
Not that that's really a surprise to me. I was pretty sure I failed after I took the vocabulary section of the test (which, remarkably, I passed that section). What got me was reading. And if you fail one section, you can't pass the test. Which stinks, as far as I'm concerned.
Am I disappointed? A little. I really did study, and studied hard - especially grammar, as evidenced by my A score! I'm not a perfectionist, but I am hard on myself, and I'm always thinking that my Japanese should be better than it is, especially for living here 2 years now. What it all comes down to is confidence - I'm always afraid I'll sound stupid when I speak, and I get really shy about it. But I should take a lesson from my students at Keihoku. The best English speakers are the ones that aren't afraid to try and take risks. And that's what I need to do. I'm not gonna sound like a native Japanese speaker, and that's ok. I don't think anyone expects that.
Will I try the test again? Not sure. Probably. Having a test to work towards keeps me motivated. And Takuya's volunteered to help by writing me text messages only in Japanese. Let the studying commence!!